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2011 Is here and I survived another year... I had some good times like spending more time with my partner Scott, spent time learning more American Sign Language as well as getting out and visiting the leather community and Baltimore along with getting to know my brothers and sisters of the leather community. Also during the year I got to meet a few stars of a more adult nature in Rusty McMann & Anthony DeAngelo & Cameron Cruise.

But of course there had to be some bad times of 2010... Lost a few friends and 2 weeks before christmas my partner of 15 months was taken from me and went home to the lord.

Below are two poems I wrote on losing Scott, how much I miss him and how much I loved him:

"One In A Million"

From the day you came into my life I knew that you were someone special.

You were a true genuine person and onethat could always put a smile on my face

when I was down or when we were just being silly.

I cherish the time we spent together

and will always remember the true love you showed me.

I will never forget the places we went, or the things you taught me.

I never knew real love until the day that we met and connected as one.

Even through rough times during our time together,

as well as the struggles you went thru as well as the struggles I went through.

We were always there for each other.

Now that you are gone, a part of my life has been taken away.

True love a gentle caring guy that was a son, a brother, a cousin,

an uncle and as a partner has gone home to the heavens above.

I know now you are at peace, out of the pain, and resting peacefully

with mom and sister Shelby. I am happy to have known you and to have been a part of your life. I am grateful to you for making you the happiest man in the world as well as being proud of me.

From your friends to those closest to you, to your parents, sister and other aquaintences...

You were One In A Million.

You will be greatly missed and never forgotten.

Your Family, Your Friends and your Partner Quinton

I love you, We love you and you will be missed dearly.

"Think Of You"

As I sit and reminince, I think of you...

I think of the time we spent together,

I think of the good and bad times together.

I laugh when I think about those times when 

we were being silly and I tear up when I think

about those time when we were apart.

Missing you is as much as I do, is like hurting

more than anything I can think of. Not seeing you

face to face or hearing your voice or hearing your 

sweet laughter is taking it's toll on me physically

and mentally.

But I will always cherish the memories we had and keep

them locked away in my heart. I just wish i could see you

again... if even for a minute or an hour or a day...

Just to see a phone call from you or a message in my email

would bring a smile to my face.

I don't know any other way to say I love you... Deep down

inside I know you "loved me lots" as you would say... then

I'd reply "I love you dearly".

Without you I sometimes feel like a nervous reck... but with

having the support of all of our friends keeps your memory alive

as you will never be forgotten and that you always have a special

place in their hearts.

Hey Mr. Wilson... You'll always be in my heart and I'll never forget you.

But through the ruff time of the loss of Scott... I did make the best of if... I got to spend christmas day with my dad, my step-mom and my stepsister.

Here I'm pictured with my step-sister Lauren and my step-mom Janet.

A few days after Scott's burial.. they was a memorial held in his honor at The Baltimore Eagle in Remembrance of Scott Willard Wilson. I was surrounded by good friends... correction... I was surrounded by my extended family that showed me a lot of love and support thru the holiday season of 2010.

Plus I can't forget about New Years being spent with SIR John & Boy John... Amongst all of the people that have been there for me through the difficult holiday season I had... I was embraced by the leather community of Baltimore. My thanks to EVERYONE for being a friend to Scott and to myself and to those that were able to be there to pay your respects to Scott. It is much appreciated by all Scott's family (which includes me and his closest friends) and friends.

So on to 2011... I hope 2011 brings me lots of happiness and comfort knowing that I have my family, my friends and my extended family... who will be there for me. Scott may be gone but he is not forgotten. His memory will live on inside me forever.

Until next time....

Yours respectfully

Quinton Smart-Wilson